Maybe it will all go away

I know I'm being an idiot, but it seems I don't know any other way to be. What am I supposed to do? I have to somehow figure this out on my own. The only way I know how to do that is to shut down. If I ignore it, it will go away. Eventually it will have to go away. I can crawl inside myself so deep that I don't have to see anything anymore. Maybe by the time D gets back I won't even need him anymore. It really might be better that way. This idea of getting help, having someone to talk to about the stuff in my head....I think it's just killing me slowly.

I found another song today. Ya, it's all about the lyrics. Some of this song is a little too *lovey* but for the most part I think it hits the nail on the head.

Push

Every time I look at you the world just melts away
All my troubles all my fears dissolve in your affection
You’ve seen me at my weakest but you take me as I am
And when I fall you offer me a softer place to land

You stay the course you hold the line you keep it all together
You’re the one true thing I know I can believe in
You’re all the things that I desire you save me you complete me
You’re the one true thing I know I can believe

I get mad so easy but you give me room to breathe
No matter what I say or do ‘cause you’re too good to fight about it
Even when I have to push just to see how far you’ll go
You won’t stoop down to battle but you never turn to go

You stay the course you hold the line you keep it all together
You’re the one true thing I know I can believe in
You’re all the things that I desire you save me you complete me
You’re the one true thing I know I can believe

Love is just the antidote when nothing else can cure me
There are times I can’t decide when I can’t tell up from down
You make me feel less crazy when otherwise I’d drown
But you pick me up and brush me off and tell me I’m okay
Sometimes that’s just what we need to get us through the day

You stay the course you hold the line you keep it all together
You’re the one true thing I know I can believe in
You’re all the things that I desire you save me you complete me
You’re the one true thing I know I can believe

"Even when I have to push just to see how far you’ll go, You won’t stoop down to battle but you never turn to go" That's the best line.....