Sunday, July 08, 2007

The bipolar normal

I had a conversation today with a lady who's been diagnosed with bipolar for 20 years. She didn't say a lot in the conversation, but with her few comments I managed to make some sense of something that has been bothering me. You see, I tend to overanalyze things when it comes to the big question of whether I'm bipolar or not and I came to the conclusion today that I need to stop analyzing all the little things. I need to relax and see if any of the big things happen and quit spending so much time putting all the little stuff under a microscope. I also realized that there are things about me that simply are NOT normal. Things that are apparently more normal for bipolar individuals, but the regular people in life don't seem to experience these phenomena. I want to make a list (yes, I'm a listmaker if you haven't noticed already). Lists show me things in a clear and concise way that I find to be rather indisputable. Anyway, my list is of things that aren't so called normal. Things that happen to me that fit into the bipolar mold.
1. The depression blanket - that's exactly what it feels like. It's like all of a sudden I get this overwhelming feeling of depression for no reason I can find.
2. .......

I'll think of more later. I know there are more. They'll come to me.

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